Posts made in September, 2014

If at First You Don’t Succeed…

Posted by on Sep 15, 2014 in Blog, Weight Loss | 0 comments

Over the past few months, I have been thinking a lot about my weight. If you’ve known me for the last few years, then you know that about 2 1/2 years ago, I lost 50 lbs and got really close to my goal weight of 140. I think I ended up around 146. And then I got tired of dieting. So I let myself have a little more leeway on what I ate. And then a little more. And eventually just eating whatever and however much I wanted. And then I stopped exercising. And now I am here, back to where I was when I started my weight loss journey. Actually, a little bit heavier than that even. :(

For a while, I lived in denial that I was regaining all my weight. Then, when I couldn’t deny it anymore, I still didn’t really care. I am not sure why, but it didn’t really bother me. Then, my clothes started getting too tight. Then, I saw some candid pictures of myself, and, let me tell you, that was a wakeup call. For some reason, it’s easier to be in denial when you look in the mirror, but when you can see how other people see you, it’s really hard not to see how bad it’s gotten. This morning I weighed myself, and the scale said 201. I have never weighed over 200 lbs when I wasn’t pregnant. So, this is really the worst it’s ever been.

I am really annoyed with myself for being back in this position. It is like all that work I did before was just a waste. Now I have to do it all over again. And I know that if I think of it as a “diet” like I did before, then I am not going to succeed long term. This has to be a change that I make forever, not just until I reach my goal. Because if I go back to what I was doing when I gained all my weight, then guess what? I gain a bunch of weight. Duh.

Last time I decided that I wanted to lose weight, I wasn’t sure where to start. I did a fad diet because it promised results. Then I did Weight Watchers. Both were very effective, and I feel like they both taught me a lot about what works for me when I need to lose weight. One thing that I learned is that dieting is kind of like religion. There are all kinds of diets out there, and they all claim to be the best. They even have their own advocates who can get in pretty heated arguments about why theirs is the best. I think you just have to find what suits you best and go with it.

What Makes Me Gain Weight

  • Too many simple carbohydrates
  • Snacking frequently
  • Eating at restaurants
  • Indulging too frequently
  • Eating what Lex eats (or doesn’t eat)
  • Eating due to boredom

What Works for Me When Trying to Lose Weight

  • Avoiding foods high in carbs, especially sugar
  • Having sweet-tasting options, including fruit & diet soda
  • Being able to have indulgences now and then
  • Drinking more water
  • Eating lean meats and low-fat dairy
  • Portion and snack control

My sweet tooth is my downfall. I love sweets. And carbs. And especially sweet carbs. And it’s hard to control myself when I have them in the house or when they’re offered at a party or something. I feel deprived if I can’t have anything sweet, so when trying to decide what kind of diet to follow, I know that I need to be able to eat fruit and sugar free Jell-O and have sweet-tasting drinks.  I also don’t want to feel hungry, so I need to have something I can snack on guilt free. So, this time around, I am going to do Weight Watchers’ Simply Filling Technique. I am  not actually subscribing to WW, though, because this technique is easy enough to follow without joining. You only eat the foods on the list at whatever portion feels right to you. There is enough variety for me to be able to still eat most of the foods I love and typically cook. I will allow myself a (small) cheat probably once a week unless it becomes a problem.

In addition to the change in diet, I will also be exercising. My husband’s work has a gym that I can also use, and I am going to start taking him to work in the morning and using it. This morning I did 20 minutes on the elliptical machine and a little bit of machine weight lifting. Once I figure out an exercise routine, I will share it here. For now I think I’ll be focusing on cardio and throwing in some light weightlifting here and there. My goal for exercising is to do it at least 5 days a week. And when I can’t get to the gym, I will either run around the neighborhood or do a workout from YouTube.

My goal for now is going to be the same as it was last time, 140 lbs. I hope that at that weight I will be able to fit into size 10 pants. At that weight, I think I will feel comfortable in my own skin and really feel like my outside appearance will reflect the way I see myself. I want to lose about 2 lbs a week (which, I believe, is a healthy rate to lose), so it will be a while before I reach that goal, and that’s ok. Slow and steady wins the race.

So, here we go again with this whole weight loss thing. Hopefully this is the last time I have to try again.

Starting Weight: 201 lbs. *cringe*

Goal Weight: 140 lbs.

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